law school
I'm thinking law school. Seriously thinking this may be my next career step. Currently I have the extremely impressive (joke) big-wig job of paralegal in tax law, and now I'm thinking that simply isn't good enough. Better than a paralegal, not to mention more prestigious, challenging and high paying would be to bite the bullet, fork over the hefty pocket change, say good bye to any pipe dream of a social life and pursue the Bar. So, I'm mulling it over. Like spicy wine.
I'm concerned with how well I would do in such a highly competitive academic arena that would be my daily life. I have never felt the need to challenge myself intellectually, and I have nevr been challenged. This would be an incredibly valuable learning experience, not just as a career move, or step on a path towards a career, but to learn how well I work under this competitive pressure. I like to think that I am non-comfrontational/competitive, but I know I am. Professional success acheived by others BURNS me. I ignite with a fire of jealousy, knowing that I not only could acheive that kind of success, but I could do it better, faster, smarter. It's not that I thinkt hat I just friggen rule in all respects, but I hold myself to a higher standard. But essentially, I have done nothing to reach that standard. Really, every day that goes by in which I do not have a set career path or goal is what I consider a failed day, a waste of time.
One of my clients told me today about his daughter who wanted to become a paralegal, but instead she fell in love, got married and really didn't amount to anything professionally. Not that I look down on that, but it's not me. I assured him that I had no aspirations of a personal life. When I future plan my life (which is a daily occurance), I only envision my professional accomplishments. I see myself in a profession that I love, that occupies my time, and makes me feel fulfilled. I don't need dinner parties and social gatherings, not that I would turn them down, but what is important is to feel important in what I do. Right now, my job makes me feel invaluable, mostly because of my particular situation. But ultimately, I want to continue that kind of fulfillment thoughout my life. I won't achieve the same kind of felt effect in other part of my life. I must show that I amount to something. I think I would be a great lawyer, and it would challenge me for decades. It's an ever evolving field, and once passing the bar I can move from tax law to family law to immigration law to corporate law and if I really wanted to make some money and lose all respect for myself, criminal law. I'm thinking.
I always wanted to write though. I always wanted to do something in a literary creative field; editing, publishing, journalism, etc. I do make a damn intimidating and beautiful breach-of-contract letter though.
This is a good goal for you. You are very driven, young grasshoppa. If you're serious about having no social life, and it seems you are, I say go for it. The reason I decided not to become a lawyer was because I rarely saw my dad, growing up. I only got to know the real him on vacations, once a year. Otherwise, he was working at home or sleeping. And I thought, if I ever DO choose to have a family, I want to see them. Not just @Christmas.
Do I regret it now? No, because I will likely get married before long. And because I see how hard all the attorneys work (w/the exception of the one who got fired recently of course, for not working much if at all..her heart just wasn't in it).
Go on, girl.
