No competition

I think competition is the biggest waste of energy ever.  It has never really occured to me that I could lose, at anything so competition has never entered my mind.  I assume that I will outsmart my opponent.  It is a given, like, naturally no one can possibly be a competition for me.  This whole sting of thoughts entered my mind 'cause my friend called me to tell me her new name in aerobics class is Ms. Competitive.  Huh?  We happen to be workout partners and I have never considered her competition, but I guess when we would hit the gym together, she was instigating secret competitions with me.  Weird.  Talk about an insanely low self esteem.  Or, OR maybe I have an overinflated ego.  'Cause when I was thinking about how retarded it is to secretly have a competition with someone who is supposed to be a close friend, I was also racing some chubby who was speed walking down the street.  Subconciously I was trying to out-walk this lady.  Is it justified to secretly race some chubby lady out getting her daily exercise in the persuit of health, yet unjustified to secretly compete with your friend?  Maybe I am a hypocrite.  An egotistical hypocrite. 

I still think competition is a waste.  I would be the person told to race a mile and find the flatest mile to run just to beat someone's slow behind in wits and speed.  I need to know how to handle this competition thing because I am uncomfortable with her chilling on the elliptical trainer next to me trying to out perform.  What if she keels over in an attempt to jog faster.  I'd feel guilty for ever.  Huh, an egotistical hypocrite with a conscience.